mediation deliberation

i've finished getting all of my paperwork together for what will hopefully be our last mediation session. prayers/positive thoughts are always welcome. likely the mediator and i will both be fighting to get what we're owed. seriously.

we haven't heard from bk in a couple of days and the last interaction i had with him wasn't particularly positive. miss p fell apart a bit on friday after she saw him telling me that he doesn't pay attention ('tention) to her when auntie bk is around. i started crying when she told me and made her promise to tell me if i ignore her when other people are over. this was really the first time she's been able to express negative feelings towards r, which i suppose is healthy. it's hard to watch her try and transform herself into something that will be pleasing to him... it takes two days for her to come back down and be her normal, carefree, if somewhat hyper self. it sucks to have to share her sometimes because she's so awesome when she's on. (i asked her if she wanted to go and get a pumpkin for halloween and she said, well, daddy and auntie are taking me. oh dear god.)

it turns out that single dad (d) was down for a play date, so we met up with him and his son (d2) at the park and then went and had some lunch and went to the bookstore. the kids got along swimmingly and it was SO nice to be with someone that knows all the intricacies of single parenthood, that understands how devistatingly lonely it can be and how hard it is to be civil to the other parent when you feel like their main goal in life is to complicate yours. while we don't parent identically, i was impressed by him and the level of involvement he seems to have in d2's life. we're meeting up for dinner on wednesday i think.