two weeks ago i had my annual appointment with my ob/gyn. blah blah blah i'm always tired. blah blah blah i hate children and don't want any more, not even a little bit. blah blah blah bleeding hysterectomy menopause outlawing abortion/sterilization?! blah blah blah. we talked and it seems like tubal occlusion will be the best permanent birth control option for me. so next monday my copper iud (gob rest her soul, she served me well and effectively for five years) will be taken out and my essure will be put in. schweet! only downside is we have to use backup birth control for three months (but i suppose that's how most permanent birth control methods are right? like vasectomy?).
and, i failed my Pap smear. again. appears to be low-grade sil cells (squamous intraepithelial lesions), likely due to me having HPV (likely from a cheating partner who shall remain nameless. bastard. :-/ ). i have to have a colposcopy next week to make sure the cells haven't progressed further since the last test. when i told verna yesterday she said she'd refer me to a gynecological oncologist to follow me more closely, since i'm at higher risk for female cancers in general. *head/wall*