wherein there are opposing forces

  • ridiculously late child support, still not in hand, after several days of excuses and snippy attitude
  • bk giving my mom flower's for mother's day and ignoring me completely *scratches head*
  • promises to take care of things (insurance claims, help with the kids) still unfulfilled after friendly reminders for the past several weeks
  • bk telling the kids that it's not good to eat meat because the farmers are mean, even though he knows i buy organic free range, etc. and knows i will not be raising the kids as vegans
  • lots of work and very little sleep

but

  • completely unexpected and romantic gesture by d for mother's day - seriously
  • a giant tax refund that will get me completely out of debt
  • work i look forward to every day
  • parker telling me that she could see the 'antlers' moving on the dead ants in her ant farm
  • parker telling me about a boy at preschool pushing her and then telling her that he thought she was cute, me explaining that sometimes boys do that when they like a girl, and parker wondering if d pushed me when we first met
  • last night's episode of house that had a successful twist
  • annie duke losing to joan rivers on celebrity apprentice
  • selling out of chocolate in two days
  • noni making homemade gnocchi at my request
  • negotiating and selling my first wedding to a really nice young couple (truffles for 200 people)
  • d making me feel exceptionally safe, well taken care of, secure, sexy, and optimistic every day
  • being able to afford to have a maid once every two weeks
  • seeing lorenzo dance around in a black balet leotard and a bright blue cheerleading skirt
  • really awesome organic free-range sausage traded for a chocolate bar on sunday and parker saying, 'yeah, i think i'm going to keep eating this stuff!' after i reminded her that it's HER decision
  • d cleaning up the kitchen after dinner tonight