'if they both had ibs, i could see them getting married over that.'

in financial news... checked my bank account to make sure i could pay my rent this month, noted that i couldn't and then realized a few days later that that was odd since i am SO good at managing the little money i DO have. rechecked the account online and guess what? $538.95 to speedpay (a western union spinoff) with someone's name in the transaction record. doh! i didn't make that transaction. hopefully it won't take the full 10 days to get the money refunded. just what i needed.

but, speaking of what i needed, bk got our stimulus check in the mail a few days ago. thank god he needed ME to cosign it before he could cash it. we got $1800 back so that little $900 pop that i got was MUCH appreciated.

b and i went down to the department of environmental health today to check which permits we need to sell at the farmer's market, on the internet, and in restaurants. i was pretty shocked to discover that you need no classes and no permits (through this department at least) to sell online. the lady shrugged and kind of just said 'well, there's really no way for us to know or track it, so we really don't try...' while this is good news as a new business owner (the annual permit is $750+) i thought it was a little strange as a consumer. obviously we'll be doing the classes and getting the permit but geesh, if you just wanted to have an internet business you hardly need any licences at all. we also found out that our label only needs ingredients, weight, and contact info. so thankfully we won't have to ship the chocolate off to have caloric studies done. have i mentioned that i'm totally sick of chocolate? still love working with it but i've had several pounds in the house for a few weeks now and haven't tasted a bite. *blech* oh and we still will be pouring chocolate soon but it's been hot hot hot around here and much too hot to ship.

have i also mentioned that it's frickin' raining ash around here? went to put the kids in the car for miss p's first day of summer camp and there was ash ALL over the carseats. i've had a nasty cough for the past week and a half and we haven't seen blue sky in a while now. :(

i had an appointment with bob (the counselor that bk and i saw for six months and that i've seen on and off since then) last friday and that was a special treat (seriously) for me. we went through all the court scenarios, my fears, how things have (and haven't) changed over the past several months. i feel a bit stronger and prepared for the hearing (that is a week from friday). i've moved back into a really really angry time. i can barely look in bk's direction without feeling vaguely violent. ( how can he do this? how can he not take care of his kids? has he no conscious at all? when are the consequences going to hit?)