to continue. i don't know what the signs were. he seemed depressed since 'renzo was born, maybe a little bit earlier. he'd go in and out of seeming like himself. he seemed tired and overwhelmed- like me ... i thought it was the new baby. but when he was joyful he seemed to be actually joyful. i knew that the drinking was becoming a problem. honestly i think (looking back) it had been a problem for quite some time. he was never superficial or shallow. i think that's a defense mechanism, he's transparent now.
what sparked the change? i think he felt trapped, in too deep, overwhelmed by the responsibilty of being a father of two at age 25. i think the circumstances (meeting at 14, my cancer at 16, marriage at 20, babies at 21 and 24 and finally the restaurant/bar environment he worked in during the last 5 years) stacked the odds against us. i was willing to push through this. he wasn't. add to that an attractive (blech) woman who is NOTHING like me (single, blond, lots of makeup, not at ALL crunchy, no interest in kids, party-type) and we were doomed i guess.
i suspect he'll find the grass is just more nose-jobby and equally naggy on the other side. :o) cheers!
what sparked the change? i think he felt trapped, in too deep, overwhelmed by the responsibilty of being a father of two at age 25. i think the circumstances (meeting at 14, my cancer at 16, marriage at 20, babies at 21 and 24 and finally the restaurant/bar environment he worked in during the last 5 years) stacked the odds against us. i was willing to push through this. he wasn't. add to that an attractive (blech) woman who is NOTHING like me (single, blond, lots of makeup, not at ALL crunchy, no interest in kids, party-type) and we were doomed i guess.
i suspect he'll find the grass is just more nose-jobby and equally naggy on the other side. :o) cheers!