when i was going through chemo i had a hickman catheter. basically two tubes hanging outside of my body for several months. instead of hiding them inside of my shirts i hung them out the top. i also never wore hats or scarves after i lost my hair. when i finished my treatment i got a tattoo on my arm, a caduceus and gold ribbon for childhood cancer. i guess i wasn't one to hide the experience. i've always talked about it freely.
i'm okay with the fact that i'm getting big fake breasts. of course, i want them to look balanced to my body and feel as natural as possible and god forbid, they look like those awful half cantaloupe things. but it's okay with me if they look fake-ish. because they will be fake and i know that. and i assume that other people will know that too. and i intend to deal with this previvorship thing like i dealt with the cancer thing, by saying something first.