mainly to children and chocolate and health-ifying men i suppose. i don't think i've even been this busy in my entire life. between two days in parker's classroom, four days in the kitchen, one day at the market and a meeting or two i am so flipping exhausted. oh yeah, i'm grading papers too. why? WHY?!
s&b has doubled its wholesale accounts in the last month or two and is suffering only minor growing pains. we're hopefully signing the lease on the store front sometime in the next week. we're redoing the website. and our packaging. and designing the store. omg. this is real. someone from sunset magazine just contacted me. we're winning awards and being recognized by name and brand and face. never in my wildest dreams.
meanwhile things are changing so quickly at home that i too am taking it "one day at a time." what a ride this is. indescribable. trying to find a good al-anon meeting and in the meantime, going to a saturday morning meeting with "the boys." so many "aha moments" i feel like i'm on oprah.
after months of grogginess i cut my anti-depressant (celexa) in half. seem to be feeling a bit better. wouldn't it be something if after 10 years i wasn't on it anymore? might try something a bit more activating. i'm still a but irritable, particularly with the kids. derp.
things with rory are...the same-ish? except the kids don't care. and i mostly don't care. and he continues to be a sort of douchey uncle figure. lorenzo has taken to calling danny "daddy" on occasion and danny, more than ever IS daddy. home life is mostly domestic and boring these days with the random flare ups of rory (for example:claiming the kids on his taxes (without my permission while we were out of the country) or paying his child support a week and a half late and not in full). i'm looking into having his wages garnished. the man owes me almost $15k for the love of god.