meeeeedford, spent the night here. good little drive up here to medford; we have another 4-6 hours but we've made good time with only one quickie dinner stop and one gas break. so far so good. it isn't 900 degrees or anything.
and yes, of course it is nice to be getting along with r. i'm a bit weary and suspicious because nothing has been what it seems since all this began. and i wasn't trying to discredit anything (or be dramatic) by saying we were really just friends. what i meant by that was that while we shared a deep love (and i do believe we did), that fiery chemistry wasn't ever there. that's not something i'm even particularly regretful about but something i'll be aware of in other relationships. it was enough to sustain me happily(ish) but not him.
okay, gotta jet. i'll check in later!
oh, almost forgot! i got a letter from dcss. we're going before the commissioner on october 31. snap!