*sigh* the wedding. em & andy's wedding was lovely (except for the tacky flowers... *winks at emily*). really beautiful and a good time. i was so honored to be a part of it. i am so desperately happy for them because i believe they will make it like so many of us don't. i was happy to note that i do believe in marriage and love and sex and lots of other warm fuzzy things. that said, i bawled during the toasts and had to excuse myself to regain my composure. the toasts were hard. i remembered amanda crying like emily's sister did and our friends and family showering us with love and support. i remembered the way the day was so long planned for and over so fast. i felt so hopeful and alive. i realized at emily's wedding that none of that mattered in the end. that sometimes things come down to really simple things like a man thinking he's not getting enough sex... oh wait, i meant something else. sometimes things come down to really simple things like people changing and having different goals and dreams and waiting until it is too late to talk about them. and i guess, in the end this has been for the best. because as the fortune inside the fortune cookies at the wedding said (andy is chinese) "the best is yet to come." yes, the best IS yet to come. cause this sure as hell hasn't been the best.
incidentally i decided that if i ever get married again i will have the opposite of the wedding i already had. r's and my wedding was very classy, beautiful, elegant. in order to be a bridesmaid in my next wedding you have to be able to wear those paste on tassles on your boobs and twirl them in opposite directions. i'm accepting applications. email me for details.
which brings me to something less sappy and more "best." during my second date with b he asked me if i'd be interested in bringing his business idea to fruition with him. i don't know what prompted him to ask me, some person he barely knows. likely the same thing that prompted me to say "yes." as r will gladly tell you (and he condiders this a major fault i think) i am not a big risk-taker. i'm going balls out (thanks) on this somehow. maybe (in part) to prove him wrong. i'll fill in the details about this as they unfold (there's a clue in the title). i am really excited. no lectures, i'm not being stupid. that, my friends, is physically impossible for someone with as large a brain as me.
incidentally i decided that if i ever get married again i will have the opposite of the wedding i already had. r's and my wedding was very classy, beautiful, elegant. in order to be a bridesmaid in my next wedding you have to be able to wear those paste on tassles on your boobs and twirl them in opposite directions. i'm accepting applications. email me for details.
which brings me to something less sappy and more "best." during my second date with b he asked me if i'd be interested in bringing his business idea to fruition with him. i don't know what prompted him to ask me, some person he barely knows. likely the same thing that prompted me to say "yes." as r will gladly tell you (and he condiders this a major fault i think) i am not a big risk-taker. i'm going balls out (thanks) on this somehow. maybe (in part) to prove him wrong. i'll fill in the details about this as they unfold (there's a clue in the title). i am really excited. no lectures, i'm not being stupid. that, my friends, is physically impossible for someone with as large a brain as me.