things are generally more mellow when r isn't around. parker is calmer and better behaved. this means i can focus some energy on 'renz which makes him happy too. i feel more at peace when we aren't interacting. i'm not sure how much longer i want to do 'marriage' counseling. i feel like he just uses it as an excuse to beat up on me. my ego is suffering seriously and he isn't making any visible progress. i mean he does in the appointments but then it's *poof* gone by the next day.
the kids and i have had a fun couple of days. two days ago we went over to santa cruz and spent the afternoon with austin. we had lunch and went to the tide pools. parker got a kick out of the anemonies, seals and surfers. her favorite however was seeing a dead seagull on the beach. she walked all around it and talked about how dead things don't move. (morbid like her mama maybe?) later that night in bed she rolled over and said to me "mama, dead birds are cool." and really, what could i say to that?
yesterday p had an appointment with ina. she had a rough go of things at first but all-in-all it was another good appointment. ina said that shorter periods of time are better with r are better right now.
after the appointment we had a fun afternoon with emily. tomorrow is her bachelorette party! yay!
the kids and i have had a fun couple of days. two days ago we went over to santa cruz and spent the afternoon with austin. we had lunch and went to the tide pools. parker got a kick out of the anemonies, seals and surfers. her favorite however was seeing a dead seagull on the beach. she walked all around it and talked about how dead things don't move. (morbid like her mama maybe?) later that night in bed she rolled over and said to me "mama, dead birds are cool." and really, what could i say to that?
yesterday p had an appointment with ina. she had a rough go of things at first but all-in-all it was another good appointment. ina said that shorter periods of time are better with r are better right now.
after the appointment we had a fun afternoon with emily. tomorrow is her bachelorette party! yay!