i asked for our family to be made whole and damn if he didn't come through. oh well, miss p got her trampoline.
yesterday r and i had our appointment with bob. two painful hours. painfu, but worthwhile. (i love bob. have i mentioned that? i do. anyway.) r was somewhat emotional finally. but he was also defensive about his current role in our kids' lives. as in, i say he isn't there enough and he says he's trying. so after vowing to try harder what does he do? he drops me off at home, pokes his head in to say hi to the kids and splits. as it turns out he didn't even have to work he just was feeling too emotionally "sick" to spend time with the kids. miss p begged him to stay and he left with promises of "i'll stay ALL day tomorrow."
so, this morning at 8.15 (15 minutes late, again) he shows up. i wake from a bad dream to find him standing in the doorway, watching us sleep. by 10, he was talking about leaving to go back to his parents' house (he is tired, doesn't feel good). he was gone by 11.30. so much for all day. parker peed her pants twice after he left. she's confused. so am i.
i decided to make the most of the day and took the kids to mervyns to exchange some christmas crap. i was feeling very capable and proud of myself, got some cute stuff for the kids and then got a little too cocky. i tried lunch by myself with the two kids. lorenzo pulled what was thankfully not very hot, hot and sour soup off the restaurant table and all over himself and me. then he kept dropping his chew spoons and the nice waiter kept bringing me new ones. i felt bad and realized only when i got to the car that i'd tipped really poorly. so sorry to the nice guy at bowl bowl house.
yesterday r and i had our appointment with bob. two painful hours. painfu, but worthwhile. (i love bob. have i mentioned that? i do. anyway.) r was somewhat emotional finally. but he was also defensive about his current role in our kids' lives. as in, i say he isn't there enough and he says he's trying. so after vowing to try harder what does he do? he drops me off at home, pokes his head in to say hi to the kids and splits. as it turns out he didn't even have to work he just was feeling too emotionally "sick" to spend time with the kids. miss p begged him to stay and he left with promises of "i'll stay ALL day tomorrow."
so, this morning at 8.15 (15 minutes late, again) he shows up. i wake from a bad dream to find him standing in the doorway, watching us sleep. by 10, he was talking about leaving to go back to his parents' house (he is tired, doesn't feel good). he was gone by 11.30. so much for all day. parker peed her pants twice after he left. she's confused. so am i.
i decided to make the most of the day and took the kids to mervyns to exchange some christmas crap. i was feeling very capable and proud of myself, got some cute stuff for the kids and then got a little too cocky. i tried lunch by myself with the two kids. lorenzo pulled what was thankfully not very hot, hot and sour soup off the restaurant table and all over himself and me. then he kept dropping his chew spoons and the nice waiter kept bringing me new ones. i felt bad and realized only when i got to the car that i'd tipped really poorly. so sorry to the nice guy at bowl bowl house.