24 hours

nails done, legs shaved, house cleaned. it's unbearably hot and has been for a week (this seems like something i'll want to remember). i allowed myself one day of navel gazing and complete panic on friday night but that's passed and i'm feeling really ready to get this underway tomorrow morning. 

five years ago, before my mastectomy, i drank a bottle of wine and had a nice conversation with rory. things are different this time - we don't speak, for reasons i'm sort of unsure of (they're pregnant, did i mention that?). yesterday afternoon i drank wine with mara and eric at the shop and had an easygoing evening with danny after work. my dad and renata asked me if i had a will, or a plan for the kids. i think the last time i wrote a will i was 17 and it's on some long since recycled brick of a laptop. (here: i want my parents and danny to raise my kids. i want them to use the money in my savings account to give them the most badass childhood that one can have with a dead mother and deadbeat dad. i want their community to remain the same. i want them to know that nothing has made me more proud than being their mom and seeing the incredible people they have become.)

work. more later. and this, for posterity and searchability:

Celeste (35) - Dx 12/98: Hodgkins Lymphoma Nodular Sclerosing stage IIA - 25Gy mantle radiation & VAMP 5/8/12: Prophylactic BMX w/TE 9/7/12: Reconstruction w/Sientra cohesive gel implants 400cc 5/2/14: Liposuction to remove missed tissue 6/23/17: Implant revision w/Natrelle Inspira & fat grafting