changing gears or ... how this is about to become a blog about sex, ish

i've realized lately that the reason i've been having a hard time blogging is because i'm trying to fit my new life into what has become a dumping ground for all things crap. what started out as a blog about our little family (rightly) evolved into a blog about abandonment, divorce, and my feelings of anger towards bk. it has been cathartic but now happily, is a bit outdated. so, i'm going to try and bring it back to all things current. and fair warning to my family and squeamish friends. that may mean sex. don't worry though, i'll give you a chance to avert your eyes if it's anything very personal. ;)