free write

this one hasn't happened in a while. the printer is on the fritz and there is a slew of weddings in the work. (it's hard for me to not backspace and undo the mistakes i'm making alonh the way.) ha! read a blog of a little girl who just passed aweay. her parents wrote honestly and religiously i cannot relate but found myself bawlign while reading it. she's just seven and looks reminds me of miss p from behind. pause to helpt the printer. tell renzo his daddy will be here soon and he questions me "who? r?" yes, that daddy. "i don't like to spend time with him today." er well okay. i don't know what to say. later in the car after 76 bajillion errands it is "parker and you and me and d live in our house and i think tht is enough? do you mama?" yes renzo. i do. "i love this family mama." me too. and the sudden burst of spring is not only perfect for chocolate but for chocolate sales and wandering around the maket and making you feel alive in spite of cancer whirling around you. not in you but in family and friends who might as well be family. (bouncing printer calls again. hold on. ) hard to work on this in the dark but d is asleep and the kids had been bribed with a movie about a chimp so that we could, ya know. the best kind of snooze. cat little to block as a doorstop. and now it's time for the kitchen and new beginnings in tiny grocery stores and coffee shops and can we visit your little factory. but then there's the pot cookie guy to contend witha nd he wants a piece of the action but then don't we all? whew, five minutes already. maybe it'll be a daily thing this week.