this has been a really incredible day. bk (r? soon?) and i are scheduled for court on thursday. as you may recall we came to an agreement that will prevent us from having to appear before the judge. unfortunately both of our lawyers were out of town yesterday and i got a teensy bit panicky that they'll be burning more of our money by delaying all this shit for another eon. so, first thing this morning i called the lawyer and told him i'd blow him if the divorce was final by my birthday (february 6th). okay, not really. but i did to agree to do all the leg work and running around and delivering and signing, etc. and they acted like all they were waiting for was the word from me. like hey, yeah, no problem...we'll get ON that shit right away! and they did. and it is REALLY almost over. like for real this time. and i feel physically lighter today than i have felt in years, i mean many many years - since sicily i think.
and in the middle of all this coordinating i got a curious text from bk. the gist, and as seen, with no transitions:
and i cried because it is the end of something long and i cried because it is the beginning oh something far more wonderful. this will be over soon. i think that the conversation above is the closest thing to an appology i'll ever get and i'm okay with that. i said what i needed to say and i feel at peace about things. and it didn't hurt to get the thank you. it's amazing what a little closure can do for a girl. so r if you ever read this: i wish both of us more happiness than we ever dreamed of. but you know. apartish. ;)
and in the middle of all this coordinating i got a curious text from bk. the gist, and as seen, with no transitions:
him: how are the kids?
me: fine. 'renzo has a cold
him: how are things with d? does he make you happy?
me: yes, very. why?
him: i want you to be happy
me: it's been an incredibly awful and wonderful two years. i know you and i are better as but that alone was a horrible loss. i'm finding my way. and i hope you're happy too.
him: that it has. you are a strong woman and great mother to our kids. i appreciate that.
and i cried because it is the end of something long and i cried because it is the beginning oh something far more wonderful. this will be over soon. i think that the conversation above is the closest thing to an appology i'll ever get and i'm okay with that. i said what i needed to say and i feel at peace about things. and it didn't hurt to get the thank you. it's amazing what a little closure can do for a girl. so r if you ever read this: i wish both of us more happiness than we ever dreamed of. but you know. apartish. ;)