- we agreed on a child support figure that we're both comfortable with
- we agreed on a figure that he owes me in arrears
- we agreed that he'll give me some sort of a token to represent spousal support
- he told me he and miss bk may be moving to los angeles, or possibly san francisco. i get the feeling that this is all but a done deal. i'm feeling extremely conflicted about the whole thing. i'll talk more about this in the next couple of days.
details to follow, i'm too shocked to spend any longer on the whole thing...
'small wonder that he finally did what society had taught him to do, which is blame the woman in his life for his unhappiness and decide-oh, what relief this must have provoked-that the answer is to shuck off burdensome family responsibilty once and for all, and run all unfettered into the arms of the next woman on the list. how easy! all in one step the blame is allocated and the solution emerges. and what a lovely solution-so much more enjoyable than facing up to the demon that keeps you in a cold sweat at night and disturbs your work [...] better to feel hopeless and misunderstood, quietly and gently sad. better to see yourself as something of a hero for having stuck out a marriage as long as you did, having sacrificed yourself for a woman you did not really love but did not wish to hurt.
this is the story rick [no, not my 'r'] devised in order to live with himself. his leaving me, he told the unbelieving children, had nothing whatever to do with his falling in love with another woman; that just happened coincidentally. he hadn't really loved me for a long time, he said, but was waiting until i was strong enough to be able to manage on my own.'from the non-fiction book, from house-wife to heretic: one woman's struggle for equal rights and her excommunication from the mormon church by sonia johnson