so after the big stink last week bk came last night (p wouldn't go, held tight to my leg) brought lorenzo back 15 minutes early and said something about his schedule being all up in the air. in other words, although he agreed just last week to take them tuesday and wednesday, he cancelled for wednesday. since i'm no longer busy worrying about going to court, you can imagine all the extra time i've got to just be pissed.
speaking of anger...i saw bob last friday and we talked about that. i realized that i'm not missing him or feeling sad or betrayed anymore. i'm turning corners but i'm stuck in angry. i'm angry at his sense of entitlement. i'm angry that he thinks they'll be no consequences for his actions. i'm angry that he just assumes that the laundry/food/school/shelter fairy will take care of things for the kids. i'm angry that he's behaved like a coward from the moment he left. i'm angry that he continues to lie to me. i'm angry that he doesn't respect my privacy, my new life. i'm angry that i'm angry that he thinks i'm getting exactly what i deserve.
speaking of anger...i saw bob last friday and we talked about that. i realized that i'm not missing him or feeling sad or betrayed anymore. i'm turning corners but i'm stuck in angry. i'm angry at his sense of entitlement. i'm angry that he thinks they'll be no consequences for his actions. i'm angry that he just assumes that the laundry/food/school/shelter fairy will take care of things for the kids. i'm angry that he's behaved like a coward from the moment he left. i'm angry that he continues to lie to me. i'm angry that he doesn't respect my privacy, my new life. i'm angry that i'm angry that he thinks i'm getting exactly what i deserve.