any time I'm feeling blue, or puzzled , what I do, I just invite a few people to come visit me in the bathroom, and-well, we iron things out together

no sign of bk in the last couple of days. i suspect his lack of "goodnight calls" to the kids is more due to indifference than humiliation or a sneak attack that is about to be launched. no shoes will befall me anymore.

tomorrow i'm going with my grandparents to pay the $10,000 retainer fee to the lawyer i chose back in september. i'm hoping to have an appointment with him early this week. i don't really know what happens from here but it had better happen quickly.