very very very bad dreams (in which i knew i was dreaming but was physically unable to open my eyes) led me to realize that it's true what they say about not being able to turn lights on or off when you are asleep. and also that things don't always proceed in a linear fashion and that has to be okay.
so i'm going over to ben's at about noon and we're going downtown to the sba (finally). anyway, no post until after that.