there, i said it. i'm totally, completely, utterly lonely. my favorite part of the day is climbing into bed with the kids and having their two little warm bodies smashed up against mine. (none of us have ventured to r's spot in the bed; i don't know that we ever will.) parker and i have a talk every night before going to sleep. sometimes it's fluff stuff, sometimes it's serious. sometimes she prays. sometimes i do something that i guess might be called praying. anyway, it makes me feel not so lonely.