after a really nice conversation with mike i realized something. that faith thing, it's coming from inside me. while my self-esteem is probably lower than it has been since those miserable high school days, i have a faith in myself that i've never had before. i'll be okay. one way or another i'll be okay. it IS unfair to give credit to something outside of myself. i'll be okay because i'm me and i'm smart and capable of making good choices and being a fan-fucking-tastic mom with or without a partner.